Thursday, February 12, 2026

Two Serious Ladies


 
Two Serious Ladies
by Jane Bowles
1943, reprinted 2014 
 
 
Two Serious Ladies was originally published in the 1940s, and has been kept alive since then by what appears to be a mix of historical curiosity and truly passionate fandom. From a historical standpoint, author Jane Bowles' husband Paul was an author and composer. I'd never heard of him, but apparently he's moderately famous in the literary world - he was friends with Gertrude Stein and her circle, one of his novels has been made into a movie, etc. So for someone interested in Paul Bowles specifically, or that literary milieu more generally, reading Two Serious Ladies could provide some extra context.
 
I don't remember exactly how I found the book, but it must've been a tip from a true fan. If you go looking for Two Serious Ladies online, you won't find a lot of stand alone reviews, but it shows up over and over in lists of recommended titles. Its cult following seems to be large enough that if you go looking for someone to tell you about their lesser-known faves, you're sure to find somebody trying to press a copy into your hand - especially if you're interested in "forgotten" women authors or books about women living unconventional lives. It was an interesting read for me, but I won't be counting myself among its evangels.
 
Two Serious Ladies follows two middle-aged women, Miss Goering and Mrs Copperfield, who are acquaintances but not friends in the same set of New York WASPs, as they each spontaneously and independently embark on a personal experiment to live differently, no longer bound by tradition or the norms for women of their social class. 
 
The first chapter introduces us to Miss Goering, who lives alone in a big Victorian mansion. The sister of her childhood nanny shows up one day, they get along well, and Miss Goering invites her to move in. Later she goes to a party, briefly chats with Mrs Copperfield, and allows herself to get picked up by a guy who still lives with his elderly parents.

In chapter 2, we follow Mrs Copperfield on vacation to Panama with her husband. (I'll admit this caught me by surprise; I'd presumed the new housemate was the second serious lady, and that we'd continue following the characters we'd been properly introduced to.) Mrs Copperfield is very anxious, and doesn't seem to enjoy going outside or being on vacation, while her husband is very energetic, wants to walk the whole city and then hike the jungles, and basically ignores his wife's discomfort. While he's out exploring, she ends up in a hotel in the red light district, where she befriends the elderly madame and one of the young prostitutes. She keep staying there even after her husband comes back, and tells him to leave without her at the end of the trip.
 
In chapter 3, we return to Miss Goering. She's abandoned her big house in the city and moved into a shack outside a small town on one of the islands near New York. Her housemate and the guy she met at the party live with her, though they both seem unhappy about it. The guy's dad abandons the city to move in with them too. Miss Goering takes a ferry to a slightly larger town, meets a guy loitering on the street, goes drinking with him, and then comes back the next day to move in with him. Her other housemates are pretty shocked that she's leaving them. She lives with the guy for a week, then dumps him in favor of a gangster, who presumes she's a prostitute. The gangster takes her home with him, then out to a nice restaurant where he has a business meeting.
 
While Miss Goering is bored at the restaurant, she calls Mrs Copperfield, who is coincidentally back from her trip for a few days, with her new prostitute friend tagging along, before moving back to Panama permanently. Mrs Copperfield shows up at the restaurant wildly drunk with her friend in tow. Miss Goering is appalled by her, and then the gangster leaves to go do business, abandoning her. The end.
 
The plot of the book is very odd, because neither Miss Goering nor Mrs Copperfield seem to be acting on any kind of plan or ideology. They each have an inchoate sense of wanting to do something different, and enough money to basically do whatever they want, and so they both advance toward their unseen goals over the objections of the people around them. 
 
Most of what happens is just people talking, just chitchatting, or talking about how they live or what they want to do, or trying to convince someone to go into business or on a date. It all seems pretty prosaic, not like anyone is the embodiment of any particular viewpoint. Our two serious ladies listen, then say vague things about how they think it's nice to do this, or they don't want to do that. They're impervious to persuasion or browbeating. But they don't really espouse any viewpoint of their own. If there's a genuine philosophical argument about how to live hidden in this dialogue, it's couched in terms we might think of as vaguebooking or subtweeting. I'm not sure it's there at all. Also everyone in the book drinks heavily, pretty much constantly. A lot of the dialogue sounds like what you'd hear a bar.
 
Bowles's writing deals almost exclusively with what people say and do. There's almost no interiority, no mention of what anyone thinks or feels, beyond someone occasionally saying something to themselves, like an aside to the audience during a play. It makes the women's already sort of mysterious actions seem even more opaque. I say sort of mysterious because what they're doing doesn't especially seem to make them happy, and we don't really learn any other motive or goal.
 
Another thing I read in this style was the short story "An Hour of Last Things" by George P Elliott, who is best known for having almost the same name as a much more famous author. In that, a woman's husband dies, she goes out to buy an expensive stereo system, and throws herself a big party, and like Mrs Copperfield, it's implied but not stated that the widow is attracted to a younger woman. Barbara Comyns' book Who Was Changed and Who Was Dead is similarly almost Behaviorist in its refusal to depict interiority, but is a much stronger book overall, in my opinion. I'd happily swap it for Two Serious Ladies on any list recommending short, strange midcentury novels by overlooked women writers.
 
Just because it's not for me though, doesn't mean it's not for anyone, and women breaking with convention in pursuit of their own pleasure are certainly having a literary moment right now. There's even another new reprint of Two Serious Ladies, with a new intro and new cover art, out just last year. I'm certain the cult following will continue. If you're in the mood, I'd suggest sipping gin during Mrs Copperfield's chapter and whiskey for Miss Goering, perhaps starting off listening to Helen Kane sing "I Want to be Bad" to set the mood.

Saturday, February 7, 2026

DIE 3

 
 
DIE 3
The Great Game
by Kiren Gillen
art by Stephanie Hans
2020 
 
 
In the first volume of DIE, six teenagers in England in 1990 found six magic dice, and disappeared into the fantasy world of Die, an Earth-sized planet shaped like an icosahedron, a d20. They were trapped their for years, living out fantasy adventures in their roles as the mind-controlling Dictator, the lucky Fool, the emotion-powered Grief Knight, the cyberpunk Neo, the God Binder, who trades favors with supernatural entities, and the Master, who runs the game. Eventually the group learned a magic ritual that would let them leave and return home, but when they left, Solomon, their friend who'd first found the dice and acted as the Master, was seized by the evil Grandmaster who ruled the whole world of Die.
 
25 years after they returned, the now middle-aged friends got pulled back into Die. In the intervening years, Solomon had killed the old Grandmaster and become the new one. He wanted the game to resume, and the others couldn't leave without changing his mind or killing him. He holed up inside his fortress in Glass Town, protected by the armies of Little England and besieged by the armies of Eternal Prussia. The group has long since decided that although strange, the planet Die is real, and its inhabitants have the same moral worth as people living on Earth. Despite this, they also agreed to help Eternal Prussia break the siege and crack the giant bell jar protecting Glass Town so they could kill Sol and go home. The plan succeeded, but then not everyone was ready to leave yet...
 
So then in volume 2, the group split, then recombined, and split again. Initially, two members wanted to stay for awhile to avoid their problems back on Earth, while the others wanted to return immediately. With time to settle in though, everyone starts to feel guilty about what they did to Glass Town and worried about what Eternal Prussia might be doing in there. When they split up again, it's basically a disagreement about tactics instead of goals.
 
Now in volume 3, Dictator Ash and God Binder Izzy are co-ruling the nation of Angria, which is based on the fantasy world the Bronte siblings created together as children. The WWI-era hobbit army of Little England arrives at Angria's capital to demand Ash's surrender for her role in the fall of Glass Town. She arranges to meet with the Master of Little England, who turns out to be HG Wells. He explains that the German inventor of the original military wargame, Kriegspiel was drawn to Die, and his game formed the basis of Eternal Prussia. Wells blamed Kriegspiel for emboldening Germany's military, and wrote his own Little Wars game to try to discourage actual warfare. Ash disillusions him by revealing that WWI happened anyway, and Wells sets off in his time machine to do ... something. But the meeting succeeds in forging an alliance between Little England and Angria.
 
The others are all headed for Glass Town directly. Along the way, they meet a Fallen version of Neo Angela's daughter. The Fallen are like zombie orcs. When Sol became one after they killed him, they realized all the Fallen are former players who died on Die. They wonder how any Fallen could've already been there in 1990, if they were really the first players to arrive. (HG Wells and Charlotte Bronte are Masters, not players.) They also wonder how Angela's daughter could be there, and why she's years older than when Angela left. 
 
They learn from some helpful dwarves that Sol actually created the 12 toy soldiers that inspired the Brontes to write their Angria stories. Eventually the meet some Fair (robot elves from the future) who reveal that Die itself is from the future, but that it draws in people from the past to help ensure its own existence. It sent the toy soldiers back to recruit the Brontes, and the magic dice back to recruit Ash, Angela, and the others. What Eternal Prussia is making in Glass Town now, almost 30 years after their first visit, are the dice that will bring them here. If the dice are made and sent, the Die will merge with Earth in 2020. So Angela's daughter, and the other Fallen, are like the ghosts of people who haven't died yet, but will. Or they could all be saved, if the group can interrupt the creation of the magic dice...
 
Because Gillen is giving us a close-up view of these characters, we really only see three faces of Die - Angria, Little England, and Eternal Prussia, plus the Grandmaster's Realm on face 20. I can't help but wonder what would be on the other sixteen sides! 
 
Planet Die is an interesting villain. Like Roko's Basilisk, it's a malign intelligence from the future that's manipulating the past in order to ensure its own creation. Normally I wouldn't think if a planet as being a villain, but several characters who would know have suggested that Die either has or is being controlled by some sort of evil mind. I'm not totally sure how the Fair fit into this; maybe they're from further in the future, after Die merges with Earth. Ordinarily, in comics, I'd expect the good guys to win, but this is a dark enough fantasy that a downer ending seems possible. 

Thursday, January 29, 2026

Physics for Cats

 
 
Physics for Cats
by Tom Gauld
  
Physics for Cats is the most recent collection of Tom Gauld's comics. All of these were originally printed in New Scientist magazine, and basically all of them are about academia or scientific research. Gauld draws comics to about the same dimensions as classic newspaper cartoon strips, although he usually draws them as just one big panel, only sometimes splitting them up smaller.
 
Gauld's humor tends to be gentle and absurd. We get jokes about competition among scientists, like a researcher who's jealous that his rival's failed experiment exploded more spectacularly than his own, or a lab that can't do any research because they spent all their grant funding on really cool looking scifi doors. There are other jokes about failed research, the risk that you might devote years to studying something that turns out to be less impressive than you hoped, or to trying to accomplish a task that proves to be impossible. Gauld's humor doesn't mock so much as it commiserates.
 
We get comics where the humor comes from applying scientific language or attitudes to another context, like when a scientist details their method of study before revealing that yes, they do know what they want to order, or when we experimentally vary the length of Rapunzel's hair and the height of her tower to observe the effect on the outcome of the fairy tale. There are also several comics where characters realize they're in a drawing.
 
Because they were all originally published in one place, and had a consistent topic to fit that publication, the comics here have more thematic unity than you usually get from Gauld. He's always had recurring subject matter - often about books, authors, and tropes of fiction - but this ends up being a more cohesive collection than previously.

Monday, January 26, 2026

The Rider, the Ride, the Rich Man's Wife


 
The Rider, the Ride, the Rich Man's Wife
by Premee Mohamed
2024
 
 
The Rider, the Ride, the Rich Man's Wife is a novella that blends science fiction and horror to tell a new version of a classic tale about human sacrifice meant to bring good weather. But unlike in "The Lottery", for example, there is a true supernatural threat here, not solely the indifference and cruelty of one's mortal neighbors.
 
In the post-apocalyptic future, twin brothers Lucas and Kit live in a farming village that ekes a living from the parched landscape. Once every seven years, the town gets absolutely deluged with rain, which heralds the arrival of a pair of hungry ghosts, the Rider and the Wife. Each time the heavy rains come, the ghosts appear and place a mark on their prey. The next morning the hunt begins. If the prey can survive until sunset, supposedly they'll be free, but if not they'll become the next Rider. No one is allowed to help; anyone who interferes will be killed immediately.
 
When Kit is chosen though, Lucas isn't willing to let his brother die without trying to help. They make a plan. Instead of running toward the river as people usually do, Kit will run to the distant city, abandoned when civilization fell. And Lucas will meet him there.Together, perhaps the can out-run, out-hide, out-think, and maybe even out-fight the Rider and the Wife. Of course it's not really that easy, and what they find in the city is much stranger and much older than they possibly could've prepared for. Almost the whole book is devoted to the chase, with only a little scene setting before it starts, and a glimpse of the aftermath after it ends at sunset.
 
Author Premee Mohamed maintains a frantic pace as the brothers try to keep ahead of undead hunters on horseback and their horrible, monstrous hounds. Just as she did in The Butcher of the Forest, she describes the otherworldly in language that's visceral and immediate, making her ghostly creatures feel disturbingly lively. If I have one complaint, it's that the worldbuilding is so expansive that the tale seems dwarfed by the world it's set in. There might even be a connection to the otherworld of The Butcher. That's much better than the author having too little imagination though, and the unexpected sprawl of the scenery never detracts from the urgency of the pursuit. 

Friday, January 23, 2026

A Fantastic Woman (2017)


  
A Fantastic Woman
directed by Sebastian Lelio
written by Sebastian Lelio, Gonazlo Maza, and Eliseo Altunaga
Sony Pictures Classics
2017
 
 
In the early 2000s, I read a law review article where my takeaway was that the main reason trans rights varied so much from state to state in the US didn't have much to do with local politics. Instead, it was because trans rights were decided by court cases brought by the other surviving relatives of a dead person, trying to stop the transgender spouse (nearly always a trans woman) from inheriting anything.
 
In one state, the first case like this might be a about a trans woman who was married to another woman, perhaps someone she married before her transition. In that state, trans women will be legally considered women, and because both spouses are women, their marriage will be nullified. In another state, the spouse who died might be a man who married a trans woman after she transitioned. In that state, trans women will legally be counted as men, the marriage will again be classified as being between two people of the same sex, and again, it won't count. The article's claim seemed to be that what decides the rights of trans people in each US state is which family got to the courts first, and set a precedent that affects everyone who comes after, in order to leave their particular widow with nothing.
 
The US legal landscape is completely different by now, partly because of the Supreme Court case legalizing same-sex marriage, and partly because state legislatures have deliberated and passed laws instead of leaving it to probate courts to set policy. But I thought of that article while watching A Fantastic Woman because, while there are no courts involved, it's all about a rich Chilean family trying to box out dead Orlando's new girlfriend Marina, taking back, within days, the car she drove, the apartment she lived in, her dog, all the while never giving her a chance to grieve, and telling her that she's a monster for interfering with their grief.
 
(I recognize that this can happen to cisgender women too, whenever a young woman befriends or cares for an older man, whenever she doesn't have the protection of a legal marriage and a new will, as in Knives Out. But Marina has no Benoit Blanc, nor anyone else to advocate for her. And there's a larger critique of transphobia and homophobia at work here.)
 
A Fantastic Woman is a film of cruel ironies. When Orlando has an aneurysm in the night, Marina drives him to the hospital, but the police treat her first as a suspect, then as a potential victim who might've killed in self defense (though even this seems more like a pretext for the detective to force Marina through a physical examination to look for nonexistent injuries). They can't imagine her as an equal partner in her relationship, rather than as someone hired just for sex. Orlando's family takes everything from Marina, while accusing her of being a thief. She's assaulted by Orlando's son and his friends while they call her gay slurs. When she tries to sneak into the funeral, she's thrown out, and told she's ruining the others' ability to grieve for their loved one.
 
The only thing Marina has left from Orlando is the key to his locker in local sauna. To find his last, accidental gift, she makes a visual descent into hell, entering on the women's side, sneaking through the staff areas, then passing through the men's baths to their lockers. What do you think she finds inside? There's nothing that could make up for everything she suffers leading up to this moment, and the film doesn't pretend there is.
 
Although the story is realistic, the visuals are tinged with expressionism. There are maybe more mirrors and reflective surfaces in this film than in any other I've seen, and they're always used to emotional effect. The lighting is moody. And Orlando reappears many times after his death, like a ghost accompanying Marina, until he finally leads her to privately watch his cremation after the funeral.
 
 
Originally watched February 2023. 

Monday, January 19, 2026

The Best American Comics 2019

 
 
The Best American Comics 2019
edited by Jillian Tamaki
 
  
The Best American Comics 2019 ended up being the last one in the series. I sort of assume it was cancelled for reasons nebulously related to the Covid-19 pandemic and the ensuing economic turmoil, but that's really only a guess on my part. The series editor announced the publisher's decision in late 2020, but he didn't give any reason. He might not know it, or might not be allowed to say.
 
Jilian Tamaki picked 2019's comics. I think she chose fewer short comics than in the past. There are only a couple 1-2 pagers. Her excerpts from longer works feel particularly well-chosen to tell a complete sub-part of the larger story, which is something I've been critical of other editors about. I haven't been systematically counting, but I think Tamaki may have chosen a few more women artists than in the past, and I think the majority of her picks are nonfiction, mostly memoir.
 
Among the graphic nonfiction, we get Joe Sacco reporting on the petroleum industry at the oil sands in Alberta, Canada (the same region Kate Beaton wrote about in Ducks). Sophia Foster-Dimino has a harrowing account of her accidental pregnancy and abortion when she was in college and in an abusive relationship. There's an excerpt from Vera Brogsol's memoir Be Prepared about attending a Russian culture summer camp in America when she was a kid. And one of my favorite pieces in the book, Angie Wang writes about trying to find her favorite Chinese food in American restaurants, prepared the way she remembers it. Wang's piece was drawn for the cellphone, intended to be viewed by scrolling down and downward.
 
There were fewer fictional pieces. We get an excerpt from Nick Drsano's Sabrina about two strangers who are drawn together after both witnessing a murder, while omnipresent right-wing radio casts doubt on what happened in the background. I especially liked Unihabitable by Jed McGowan, a complete comic told from the perspective of a swarm of billions of nano robots attempting to terraform an alien world, then making peace with their failure. Like Angie Wang, McGowan (digitally?) painted his comic, making it look very different from the many black-and-white pen drawings that were the most common style earlier in the series.
 
I'll miss the BAC books. I've found a number of artists I like by reading them. There are a couple other comics anthologies I want to read, although they actually precede the Best American series.

Thursday, January 15, 2026

The Story of My Teeth

 
 
The Story of My Teeth
by Valeria Luiselli
translated by Christina MacSweeney
2013, reprinted 2015
 
  
The Story of My Teeth is a kind of rollicking first-person narrative telling the life story of Gustavo Sanchez Sanchez. Gustavo has a larger-than-life personality. He's a former security guard, an auctioneer, a collector of knickknacks, a raconteur, a teller of tall tales, a man about town, a storyteller but also a bullshitter. As a character and the book's narrator, he's fun to read. The book was originally written in Spanish, and it's set in a suburb of Mexico City.
 
The Story of My Teeth is divided into a handful of chapters, and moves across the unpredictably. In the first chapter, Gustavo tells most of his life story. He grew up poor, got a job as a security guard at a juice factory, eventually got a promotion to crisis manager. He met a rich woman and lived as her kept husband, learned auctioneering, got divorced. As an auctioneer, he made his own money, bought a house and a collection of curios, including a supposed set of Marylin Monroe's teeth, which he paid to have implanted in place of his own.
 
The next chapter shows a single auction, where Gustavo sells off ten of his own teeth while claiming they each belonged to a different famous historical figure, from Plato to Virginia Woolfe. We get to read a vignette for each one. At the end of the chapter, Gustavo meets his long-estranged son, now an adult who works at the art gallery adjoining the juice factory.
 
In the third chapter, Gustavo wakes up drugged and disoriented in an art gallery. His son has removed all his teeth and stolen all the collected tchotchkes out of his house. Gustavo meets an aspiring young writer and makes him his apprentice; we learn that the first chapter was written by the apprentice taking dictation.
 
Chapter four has another auction! Gustavo and his apprentice break back into the gallery to steal back his teeth and some other things to resell. Gustavo makes up entirely fictional stories about the origin of each object to tell at auction, and we get those vignettes too.
 
The fifth chapter is a posthumous retelling of Gustavo's life by his apprentice. Seen from the outside, and without Gustavo's grandiosity, it all looks a bit smaller and sadder. This one is illustrated with photos of the real neighborhood where the book takes place. The sixth and final chapter was written by the translator, not the author. It's a timeline that covers Gustavo's life, key events in Mexican history that overlap with it, and anniversaries of events in the lives of the famous people Gustavo references in his tale telling.
 
Gustavo is an enjoyable narrator, and via his fictional auction catalogs, we get a collection of very short stories within the larger narrative. A running theme is the question of how much the value of objects depends on the objects themselves and how much depends on the stories we tell about them - and relatedly, how much depends on the truth of those stories. Gustavo freely quotes and tells anecdotes about real philosophers and other thinkers, often claiming them as his uncles or cousins. Jean Paul Sartre becomes cousin Juan Pablo Sanchez Sartre, for example, a whiny brat who yells at the other relatives that spending time with them is hell. There's also a fair number of quotes and anecdotes specifically about teeth.
 
The story of how The Story of My Teeth was written, explained by author Valeria Luiselli in the afterward, is nearly as interesting as the book itself. Jumex is a juice factory in Ecatepec, Mexico. Ecatepec neighbors Mexico City, and the way it's spoken about in the text makes me think it's a bit like the Jersey City to Mexico City's NYC. Some of the profits of the factory have been spent to amass a contemporary art collection in a private gallery next door. Luiselli got a commission from the gallery, and wanted to write something about the connection between the factory workers and the collected art. After she wrote each chapter, a book club made up of factory workers met to read and discuss it. She incorporated their ideas and feedback into her revisions and used them as her basis to write each new chapter, making them true collaborators. Some even took the photos that appear in the book.

Friday, January 9, 2026

Aperitif

 

Aperitif
Cocktail Hour the French Way
by Rebekah Peppler
photos by Joann Pai
Clarkson Potter
2018
 
  
Aperitif is an invitation to enjoy a French style happy hour, an apero, with friends. For author Rebekah Peppler, an American who lived in Paris for awhile in her 20s and 30s, this means drinks made with sherry, vermouth, and other fortified wines, and savory snacks to accompany them before dinner. 
 
Peppler starts of with an introduction to vermouth (plus its cousin quinquina), sherry, and a few recommended liqueurs like Suze, St Germain, and creme de cassis. Most of the ingredients she uses are bittersweet, which definitely gives the drinks she builds from them a consistent palate. 
 
Vermouth is made from wine that's fortified with a spirit like brandy, then infused with herbs, including wormwood, from which it draws its name. Quinquina is very similar, except the bittering agent is quinine instead of wormwood. Sherry starts similarly but gets its flavor from aging in oak barrels rather than infusing herbs. Peppler picks a few brands to mention by name - Byrrh, Dubonnet, and Lillet - but largely treats the various vermouths and quinquinas as interchangeable aside from grouping them as rouge, blanc, and rose, which is honestly what I do at home too.
 
Next there are four sections of drink recipes, grouped by the weather at the time you're drinking them - warm, hot, cool, and cold. Peppler says this is partly seasonal, partly based on time of day, and whether it's been rainy or sunny. The drinks are all relatively low alcohol, what Dinah Sanders calls 'shims'. Because of Peppler's limited ingredient list, and because many of her ingredients are categories with several options for how to fill it, a lot of the recipes seem like flexible templates. Others are oddly specific. There's a Kir drink in each season, for example, always with the exact same ratio, just changing the mixer, always blackcurrant liqueur (cassis), just with sparkling wine, lager, cider, or red wine.
 
There's also a section with recipes for snacks, various puff pastries, crackers, and seasoned popcorns you can make yourself, along with spreads to smear on them, tapenades and pates. There's a bit of advice for doctoring olives or preparing cheese to share, but the emphasis is on things you prepare more than things you might purchase directly.
 
I have a suspicion that Peppler's vision of l'apero has as much to do with the nature of her friend group in Paris (and her nostalgia for those friends, after she moved back) as it does with what's customary in France, but I think that's inevitable. Imagine what a French woman who lived in New York as a young adult might write about American happy hour, for example! But I do feel inspired to try out a few more vermouth drinks this year.

Sunday, January 4, 2026

One Week in January

 
  
One Week in January
New Paintings for an Old Diary
by Carson Ellis
2024
 
  
I think it's just a thing that happens, in your 40s, to find old diaries and letters and things. I found a bunch the last time I moved. Over the past few years, I've heard from several old friends from college, because they found something like that and thought of me. Artist Carson Ellis made a discovery of her own, a diary she kept for a week in 2001, at the beginning of the new year, starting on the first day she moved into her new apartment in Portland. 
 
One Week in January is that diary, with the addition of illustrations showing the people and sights from that time in Ellis's life. If you don't otherwise know her (she's the author and illustrator of several children's books, for example), Carson Ellis is married to Colin Meloy, the lead singer and songwriter for the Decemberists. 
 
In January 2001, Ellis and Meloy were best friends and neighbors living in tiny studio apartments on a converted warehouse. The Decemberists had self-released their first EP, were starting to play their first live shows, and Meloy was writing 'Grace Cathedral Hill', a song that would go on their first full album, Castaways & Cutouts
 
Ellis had a crush on Meloy, while he was going on casual dates with several other girls in their social circle. She was trying to support herself as an artist, working on a couple big paintings, and getting smaller gigs making posters and flyers and the like. Already, she was making all the promotional art the Decemberists needed.
 
In January 2001, I was halfway through my first, very lonely year of college. I didn't get the courage to tell anyone I was trans until the start of my sophomore year, that fall. Later, in my senior year, I lived in a studio apartment about the same size as the one Ellis describes, although my building had private bathrooms and only the kitchen was shared. I went to a Decemberists' concert while I was in college, so only a couple years after Ellis wrote her diary, when they were still a small enough name to play at a bar instead of a larger concert venue, (though large enough that I'd heard of them).
 
image by Carson Ellis
 
Ellis's diary is surprisingly detailed and specific, and (in her own judgment, stated in the introduction) kind of boring. He diary captures her sharing meals with friends, trying to get work as an artist, checking her email to find nothing new, dealing with the hassle of getting her phone line set up, and on the last few days of the week, going out on the town and trying to have a good time with her friends, despite everyone's lack of spending money.
 
One Week in January is the kind book I think you can probably only make and have an audience for if you're already famous. The paintings Ellis made for the book do a lot to elevate a concept that would otherwise probably only merit a zine. I say this, but I am in fact glad I read it. It reminds me of a similar time in my own life, especially my last year of college and first year couple years of grad school, a time that was emotionally fraught and painful, but also full of nights out and fumbling attempts to create an adult identity. Ellis's paintings show the kind of scenes I used to take photos of, friends I was hanging out with, views of the city I encountered during the day and wanted to hold onto. It's a good book for starting a new year.

Friday, January 2, 2026

Everything I Watched in 2025

January
Spider-Man: The Animated Series, season 1
The Hobbit (1977)
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (2001)
Is it Cake?, season 3
Green Porno, series
The Big O, season 1
Taste the Nation with Padma Lakshmi, season 1
All That Breathes (2022)
Lockwood & Co, season 1
The Owl House, season 1
Going Clear: Scientology and the Prison of Belief (2015)
The Peripheral, season 1
Star vs The Forces of Evil, season 1
Gandahar (1987)
 
February
Last Exile, series
Severence, season 1
Pirates of the Caribbean: Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
The Big O, season 2
Dopesick, miniseries
100 Vaginas (2019)
Chip n Dale Rescue Rangers, series (1989)
Drawers Off, series 1
Silo, season 2

March
The Queen's Gambit, miniseries
Pantheon, season 1
Legion, season 1
Pantheon, season 2
Mad Cowgirl (2006)
Invincible, season 2
Conan O'Brien Must Go, season 1
Tove (2020)
Flow (2024)
 
April
Mobile Suit Gundam Wing, series
Star Wars: Visions, season 2
Sisters with Transistors (2020)
Daredevil: Born Again, season 1
Tales from the Loop, miniseries
Spider-Man: The Animated Series, season 2
North of North, season 1
Abbott Elementary, season 4
Manifesto (2015)
Landscape Artist of the Year, series 6 (2017)
Yu Yu Hakusho, season 1, Spirit Detective arc
 
May
WeWork: or The Making and Breaking of a $47 Billion Unicorn (2021)
Sinners (2025)
Adventure Time, season 1
Andor, season 1
Batman: The Animated Series, season 2, The Adventures of Batman and Robin
Star Trek: Lower Decks, season 5
The Substance (2024)
Shogun, miniseries (2024)
 
June
Dune: Part Two (2024)
Andor, season 2
Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, season 1
Slow Horses, season 1
Money for Nothing, series 1
The Sword in the Stone (1963)
Muppet Treasure Island (1996)
 
July
Reacher, season 1
Blackstar, series
Gazer (2024)
Ironheart, season 1
Lazarus, series (2025)
Murderbot, season 1
Tom and Jerry Spotlight Collection, volume 3
Superman (2025)
Slow Horses, season 2
Succession, season 2
Slow Horses, season 3
Portrait Artist of the Year, series 16 (2022)
Solaris (1972)
 
August
Common Side Effects, season 1
Cuckoo (2024)
Jentry Chau vs the Underworld, season 1
Slow Horses, season 4
Taste the Nation with Padma Lakshmi, season 2
KPop Demon Hunters (2025)
Legion, season 2
Girls' Last Tour, series 
Donald in Mathmagic Land (1959)
Alias Grace, miniseries
Brainstorm (1983)
The Gilded Age, season 1
 
September
God Help the Girl (2014)
Taste the Nation with Padma Lakshmi, Holiday Edition
The Black Cauldron (1985)
The Gilded Age, season 2
Mobile Suit Gundam GQuuuuuux, series
The Gilded Age, season 3
The Assessment (2024)
Alien: Earth, season 1
The Green Knight (2021)
 
October
Dan Da Dan, season 2
Molli and Max in the Future (2023)
The Secret Cities of Mark Kistler (2023)
Poupelle of Chimney Town (2020)
No Country for Old Men (2007)
The World's End (2013)
Money for Nothing, series 2
The Power, season 1
 
November
Patlabor: The Movie (1989)
The Night Manager, miniseries (2016)
Slow Horses, season 5
The Summer Hikaru Died, season 1
The Danish Girl (2015)
Landscape Artist of the Year, series 8 (2018)
Tenet (2020)
M (1931)
Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, season 2
Mr Robot, season 1
The Deer King (2021)

December
A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving (1973)
There Will be Blood (2007)
The Twilight Zone, season 1 (1959)
Portrait Artist of the Year, series 18 (2023)
It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
Ranma 1/2, season 2 (2025)
Dispatches from Elsewhere, season 1
How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000)
Adventure Time, season 2
Santa Claus Conquers the Martians (1964)
Bodies, miniseries (2023)
Love Me (2024)

Thursday, January 1, 2026

Everything I Read in 2025

January
Short Life in a Strange World by Toby Ferris
Here by Richard McGuire
A Steampunk Carol by Luca Frigerio, art by Lorenzo Pigliamosche
 
February
Green Dot by Madeleine Gray
Squire by Nadia Shammas, art by Sara Alfageeh
The Christmas Book Flood by Emily Kilgore, art by Kitty Moss
Mortal Engines by Stanislaw Lem
Griffin and Sabine by Nick Bantock
Mickey's Craziest Adventures by Lewis Trondheim, art by Nicolas Keramidas
No One Left to Come Looking for You by Sam Lipsyte
 
March
Une Semaine De Bonte by Max Ernst
The Tea Dragon Society by K O'Neill
The Musical Illusionist and Other Tales by Alex Rose
Die 1 by Kieron Gillen, art by Stephanie Hans
The Runaway Road by Stan Mack
 
April
The West Passage by Jared Pechacek
The Best American Comics 2017 edited by Ben Katchor
7th Time Loop 3 by Touko Amekawa, art by Hinoki Kino
Gretel and the Great War by Aadam Erlich Sachs
Paper Girls 1 by Brian Vaughan, art by Cliff Chiang
Heavenly Bodies by Paul Koudounaris
The Sun by Frans Masereel
 
May
Alphabetical Diaries by Sheila Heti
The Yellow 'M' by Edgar Jacobs
Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie
Belle of the Ball by Mari Costa
The Pastel City by John Harrison
 
June
Too Like the Lightning by Ada Palmer
The Three Astronauts by Umberto Eco, art by Eugenio Carmi
The Shadow of the Torturer by Gene Wolfe
Lost Letters by Jim Bishop
Witch Hat Atelier 9 by Kamome Shirahama
Petra by Marianna Coppo
The Forest by Alexander Nemerov
 
July
Playing with Books by Jason Thompson
The Eyre Affair by Jasper Fforde
The Girl that Can't Get a Girlfriend by Mieri Hiranishi
Chrono Trigger by Michael Williams
Otto by Jon Agee
Die 2 by Kieron Gillen, art by Stephanie Hans
The Lady Matador's Hotel by Cristina Garcia
 
August
The Best American Comics 2018 edited by Phoebe Gloeckner
The Assassination of Brangwain Spurge by MT Anderson, art by Eugene Yelchin
Witch Hat Atelier 10 by Kamome Shirahama
 
September
Summerland by Hannu Rajaniemi
Thieves by Lucie Bryon
Tower Dungeon 1 by Tsutomu Nihei
Fakes edited by David Shields and Matthew Vollmer
The History of the Computer by Rachel Ignotofsky
 
October
The Tea Dragon Festival by K O'Neill
All the Beauty in the World by Patrick Bringley
Ancillary Sword by Ann Leckie
Donald's Happiest Adventures by Lewis Trondheim, art by Nicolas Keramidas 
Witch Hat Atelier 11 by Kamome Shirahama
The Nude by Michelle Lindley
Paper Girls 2 by Brian Vaughan, art by Cliff Chiang
Sabine's Notebook by Nick Bantock 
 
November
A Storm of Wings by John Harrison
I Married My Best Friend to Shut My Parents Up by Kodama Naoko
My Dear Pierrot by Jim Bishop
The Bathysphere Book by Brad Fox
Invisible Things by Andy Pizza and Sophie Miller
Tower Dungeon 2 by Tsutomu Nihei
 
December 
The Shamshine Blind by Paz Pardo
This One Summer by Mariko Tamaki, art by Jillian Tamaki
The Hard Switch by Owen Pomery
The Claw of the Conciliator by Gene Wolfe
Bad Dream by Nicole Maines, art by Rye Hickman
There's a Tiger on the Train by Mariesa Dulak, art by Rebecca Cobb
Invisible Planets edited by Ken Liu